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I was SO sure I was going to blog after Sifu Rybak’s last prompting for us to write something  over the weekend, or to even at least check when the last time we posted a blog was, but I did not do either and somehow all that time has slipped by me without my notice of how long it has actually been or how many ideas I have lost because I did not capture them, explore them, or share them. But that’s not what this blog is going to be about, a blog about holding myself accountable, about what I have been doing wrong in my approach to blogging this whole year, and what I am going to do to fix it. That blog needs to be written, and soon, but the thought of writing that big self-critical and completely honest analysis of my year sounds daunting, and when compounded with the guilt from missing the last prompt, and having not written anything in that time, writing that blog right now would be detrimental to my progress. The pressure would stop me before I could even open my laptop. So inste...
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Tonight’s Class

 Things I learned in blackbelt class tonight: 1) it is valid to have your intent be “to have fun” while running through a form! For so long I have been working on always having a reason or some focus when I’m going through a form, I’m working on my horse stances, I’m working on this particular technique, I’m trying to understand this motion, I’m trying to feel my energy, but tonight Sifu Hayes reminded me that every once and a while I need to do my forms for the sake of enjoyment. To remind myself why I love them so much. To feel the joy of movement that inspires me to do each form again and again in the future. I have been too focused on developing knowledge, and skill and I have been neglecting deepening my passion. 2) I have been doing the high-rising-block-palm-heel part of Mlong Kuen AND LAU GAR WRONG THIS ENTIRE TIME?! So, it’s nice to have that straightened out. 3) I also had my arms reversed (left hand was on the bottom, right hand was on the top, and it’s actually meant to...
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Frustration Through the Lens of Gratitude

I meant to write and publish this blog earlier to keep in line with getting back on track with doing weekly blogging,  but my schedule changed very last minute and I had the opportunity to go camping for the first time in over a year, and I had to get a bunch of things organized, and then I was actually on the trip and there was no time to spare to try to write it and then I got home late yesterday and was super tired and had to unpack, and then I worked today and came almost straight to the YD2 class, and … We talked in last week about making excuses, and holding ourselves honest and accountable, and if I write out that whole excuse to try to justify why I missed my blog last week, I’m entirely missing the point of what was said, so I write this instead. I did not prioritize writing my blog so it was not written . This is late, but at least it is not missing. Anyways, onto what I actually wanted to write about. I really really liked a specific idea from our meeting last week. I h...
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