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It has been lovely having some consistency reading the rest of the teams blogs and connecting more online. Reading everybody’s struggles makes me feel not so alone with the things I’ve been struggling with, reading people’s successes is motivating me to make progress of my own. Getting to ask people specific questions about what they’ve been doing in their training recently has allowed me to have deeper conversations than wouldn’t be possible if I was only reading blogs, or only asking people about their training; it’s something about how having both the context for the train-of-thought from their blog tying together with in-person-real-time thoughts that allows me a more nuanced understanding of what they’re working on.  Not that I have a ton of consistency to back me up yet but so far I have only missed 4 days of not reading someone’s blog and I’m proud of how I was able to change my mindset in terms of my online engagement. It is a bit strange how sometimes when I’m on the “othe...

I’ve recently been focusing on a particular idea in my hand form and that’s what I’ve mainly been practicing… in other forms.  Yesterday other than my warm up rep of my chimaera form, I didn’t do it a single time after that (despite it being the focus of my practice). Instead I almost exclusively practiced the same idea, as it manifests in Lau Gar. I figured since I didn’t really know what I was trying to do, if I worked on it within a school form I may find more answers that I could then apply to my own form. I’m trying to work on the moment when I switch my feet under me (the jump that’s not a jump, the hop that’s not a hop). I took a video of my form the other day while working on something completely different and I noticed the jumps-that-are-not-jumps were looking really sloppy, so cue the aforementioned practice. It was a strange problem to tackle because unlike the majority of my practice it didn’t come from outside feedback, it did not it come from my eye for detail setting...

I’ve been feeling very disconnected from the team lately. And it’s entirely my fault.  It is always lovely to get to see everyone for our in person classes, and I’m excited to train more with everyone as we transition to more frequent in person Saturdays, but I have been absolutely failing at my online engagement requirement. I have never read so few blogs in a year and I am really starting to feel the isolation from everyone. I know I need to read them, I know I need to engage with them, I want to read them, but it always slips my mind and I don’t know how to make my brain remember. No matter how many times I try to resolve that I will catch up on old blogs, I will stay caught up from now on, I just don’t, and I have no idea why. I know where I am, I don’t know what I’m doing.  So time for a concrete plan. I’m going to add it to my numbers tracker and force myself to write down everyday I’m interacting, and every day I’m not. I can’t know what I’m doing if I have no data. ...

I wanted to write a blog about Kung Fu and Tai Chi after the recent discussions we’ve been having about the differences and similarities. I have never given much thought to this idea before, on the one hand I saw Tai chi and Kung Fu as entirely separated, they both have similar core truths (they are called “universal” for a reason) but ultimately are different styles, or on the other hand, my Tai Chi complements my Kung fu and my Kung Fu complements my Tai Chi, as I develop in either I get stronger in both.  But our discussions have made me start to pay closer attention to how they are different, not just the fact that they are, and aren’t.  From my notes:       The biggest difference between Tai Chi and Kung Fu is Momentum. The way they both utilize the  6 harmonies is exactly the same, and yet completely different. In Tai Chi all 6 harmonies are moving together, and working together to achieve the intent. In Kung Fu the 6 harmonies are moving togethe...

Current Problem: my horse stance needs to be lowered in my sword form Solution 1) just be mindful, and do it lower Solution 2) lower my high-back stance in the previous move to make the transition easier Solution 3) change the timing of the elbow in the move to see if that allows me to sink lower Solution 4) look for a spot in other school form repertoire that has a similar core movement/idea that can help me figure out additional solutions Investigation 1) this does not feel feasible, I notice I am sitting up higher subconsciously, but on purpose. My body knows that I need to be sitting a bit higher if I want more power in my strike, why is this? How can I change the intent of my strike to facilitate a deeper stance with equal power as what I am feeling now? Investigation 2) this helps, a step in the right direction Investigation 3) leaving the elbow behind allows me to connect it to my hip/stance/settling I’m aware of this now. I also need to work further on understanding the path of...