True Versus False Motivation

 Another idea that popped into my head while I was on the trip was writing a blog about motivation. While being away from my home training space, and the kwoon I got a better understanding of my motivation, habits, and follow through on promises. 

It's been relatively easy to think that I've been motivated and have pretty good will power when it comes to staying on track with my numbers and training, but as soon as I was thrown into an unfamiliar environment and my normal routine flew out the window I found it was so much harder to stay on track and keep trying to fulfil those promises you make to yourself, I even found it harder to get down onto the floor and start doing pushups, I would just stand there trying to psych myself up for almost a minute instead of just going down and doing them like I normally do. 

But as disruptive as this was for my training it really helped me to work on my motivation and follow through. I would tell myself, "you're not leaving this room until you've done 60 pushups, no matter how much your legs are shaking you're going to do this horse stance until the timer goes off, no matter how much you feel like you want to stop, or worse, not even start in the first place, you're going to do it. 

It opened my eyes to see that while habits we build at home can be incredibly helpful, sometimes if we're not training mindfully they can hinder us by allowing our "willpower muscle" to deteriorate a bit, just going through the motions instead of trying to push ourselves. This made me realize I need to incorporate more opportunities to practice telling my brain that "I'm in charge here, you listen to me not the other way around" into my practice at home.