way too many commas

Working on lion dance stacking some more, and trying to approach it with the mindset I discussed in my last blog. With every missed attempt I was still feeling those whispers of  disappointing, unworthy, failure, but at least having written my last blog, I was more aware of them, and able to understand them a bit more. However, my perspective really switched when Sifu Brinker was explaining something to us and finished it all off by saying "it just takes practice ." Those 4 little words, How had I forgotten them? How had I managed to forget that where I am now is the result of years of practice? Did I think I grasped a punch, a kick, even stances as quickly as I am expecting myself to get this? Somewhere along the way I had forgotten how long these things really take. No one is born being good at kung fu, it is a skill like anything else, and skills take time to build. This train of thought has made me reflect on a few things: 1) Gratitude for where I currently am. An appre...

 “working on what you’re bad at is the best way to get you excited about training, once you start to analyze, apply your eye-for-detail, and put in mindful repetitions you are bound to improve and that improvement will spur your forward, but even when we know this on an intellectual level, we don’t want to practice what we’re bad at, because it makes us feel bad” Not me though, I love to find what I’m bad at because it gives me focus, it gives me something specific to work on and I almost always find new insights! I like to approach things with curiosity rather than frustration, ‘hmm why is this not working?’ rather than ‘wHy iS tHIS noT WORKING!!!???’ Or that’s what I used to tell myself, but recently I have found something I am truly BAD at, and now I feel like I actually understand the last half of the opening sentiment. We’ve been working on lion dance stacking in the blackbelt class and I feel frustrated, and incompetent, and frankly like a bit of a failure. The closest...

My forms are slowly starting to get back on track, the pace I'm at still feels like work to maintain the consistency (definitely nowhere near 'effortless effort' yet) but it also feels very sustainable, hoping to do a few more weeks of posting my numbers and then I'll see if I can manage on my own again.  My AOK is still technically on track but I am finding some days I am only recording one or two and I'm worried if this requirement will start to stagnate, the trouble is I thought I would have ample opportunities to do AOK since I talk to so many people as part of my job, but I am having a really hard time differentiating from going a little bit out of my way to be extra kind, from what is expected of me in my job (or rather the expectations I set for myself). I always want to do my very best at work so I feel like it's cheating to count some of those interactions. (thinking I need to write a separate blog to investigate these feelings further) Requirements  (w...