Why am I Here

Why am I here? Why am I in kung fu?

These are questions we asked the Young Dragons class as a homework assignment, which was later assigned to us as a team, and I realized that I have yet to answer these questions. I hesitated to write this blog because I knew it would require a deeper level of thought than my recent "a recap on my training for the week"-type blogs I have been writing. But I recognize the value in trying to find the answers to these questions, and I think it'll be good for me to write a blog like this.

At first the answer is tricky because kung fu has done so much for me, and permeated every point of my life now for so long that no answers immediately come to mind because I can't think of a single reason NOT to do kung fu comes first instead. I am also slow to type the next lines in the blog because as I sit to think on it more, the answers I gave in my blackbelt speech are coming to the surface, but this blog is not about what kung fu has done for me, it is why am I here. 

And I think now, beyond weighing the pros and cons, or subconsciously measuring the amount of time, energy, and effort required against the benefits I receive, if I remove all the ideas associated with what I gain from kung fu, I think I am here because there isn't a single facet of kung fu that I don't love unconditionally.

I love our style 

I love how we approach energy generation and redirection

I love how my body moves through our techniques

I love the endless complexities in our forms

I love the history of our martial art

I love how challenging it can be

I love those moments of understanding

I love those moments of confusion

I love the diversity of our syllabus

I love the devotion of our curriculum

I love the passion in our instructors

I love the hard work of our students


I love Kung Fu


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Sit-Ups38207406
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Weapon Form46137
Other Forms1048
Sparring25137
AOK97137
Steps426213
Repair Relationship01
Me and White Supremacy13
12 Applications01
1-on-1's57
Kung Fu Art01

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