Uncomfort-zone

I have (finally) submitted my entry for this years Tiger Challenge. I want to say that I was stalling for time trying to get my partners sorted out for the team events, that I needed a bit more time to confirm all the divisions I was entering, but the real reason is that (somewhat unconsciously) I have been procrastinating as way to protect myself from the board breaks. 

My grading year was the first year back since COVID that I really took the tournament seriously. I told myself I don't like sparring, but that I would enter anyway, I told myself my sword form still needed lots of work, but I made myself enter anyway, but for some reason I did not push myself to do the board breaks. 

I was pushing myself to do lots that year, no need to overdo it, next year I'll do it for sure, next year rolls around and again I don't enter I'm not grading so I don't even really have to do a board break this year right? I need to dedicate time to my team events, so I won't have time to figure out a good combo for it anyway, 

This year I draw the line, no more excuses, no more mediocrity, no more fear.

Ok that last one is a lie, hopefully less fear, but I am very very nervous for this event, especially with how things went at the break-a-thon last year. But I also recognize how valuable that day was, and how important it is to still push myself, because I feel that the year of the tiger really was a great year in my kung fu with all the lessons of my grading, and then year of the rabbit with all the opportunities as a new blackbelt, but for year of the dragon, I feel like I am becoming stagnant. I almost made "public board breaks" one of my personal requirements at the start of the year, so by entering into this dreaded division in the tournament I feel like I can fulfill that intent, and try to push myself into my uncomfort-zone again. 

	Current Total	Should Be At
Push-ups	9107	12806
Sit-Ups	6128	12806
Hand Form	92 -> getting much more consistent with working on my hand form :D	237
Weapon Form	63 -> some progress, but still hard to work on it outside of the kwoon but I know this is still just an excuse, I'll really focus on working consistently  this week	237
Other Forms	26 -> I feel like I am not taking this requirement as seriously as I should, I will make this a priority too	83
Sparring	70	237
AOK	160	237
Steps	656	368
Repair Relationship	1	3
Me and White Supremacy	6	6
12 Applications	0	3
1-on-1's	6	12
Kung Fu Art	0	3
Blogs	9 -> I added this tracker because thought I was only one or 2 blogs behind, so I now know that I need to actually record the numbers if I want to know where I am and what I'm doing and how close I stick to the bare minimum, or if I can push myself beyond that too!	12