Comfortable with Uncomfortable
Pre-Tiger Challenge Thoughts:
I am quite nervous when I think about tomorrow's tournament. But I don't necessarily think that it's a negative thing. Looking back on the previous year, anytime we had any sort of showcase I remember not being all that nervous. I thought it was because after the stress of grading year that I could handle anything, or that I had grown as a martial artist, as a performer to the point where I didn't really feel the nerves, but now I think it's because I wasn't pushing myself anymore.
Lion Dance
Board Breaks
More involvement with judging
These are all things I have never done before in the tournament. I have felt a sort of stagnation in my training for a while, I think it might have happened as my focus slowly shifted to teaching, I began to neglect my own training. Or mediocrity had wormed its way in and convinced me that where I was was fine, and what I was doing was enough. Thankfully I have started to recognize it so I can start to combat it. Despite the nerves I am excited to work on my lion dance skills and I am eager to see what happens in my board breaks because I know how valuable they can be, broken or not, and I feel the trust from the other instructors as well as the students that I am able to be a judge.
So while the nerves might make it tricky to fall asleep tonight, and will probably make my hands shake and my stomach tie into knots tomorrow, I'll remind myself that Mastery isn't achieved within my comfort zone, and it'll be good to become more comfortable with being uncomfortable again.
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