Not Too Late

I suck. 

I have been sucking for at least the last two months. 

I haven’t been blogging for the past two months. I haven’t been engaging with the team online. I haven’t been working on my personal requirements (even though I promised my besties). I didn’t do Todai Bauer’s kindness project. I didn’t sign up for the kinsmen project. I haven’t been doing my forms. And the final (much needed) slap in the face from tonight, I have forgotten Mastery.

Not just the written requirement, but in letting these things all slip through my fingers these past two months I have forgotten Mastery.


Forty-two days ago I had reached a milestone in my training. For the first time since joining the I Ho Chuan I was 10 000 pushups behind. An achievement I earned through mediocrity and missed opportunities. 

Last year I fell pretty far behind too when my schedule was turned on its head as I started my new job, but by doing one big push to catch up at the end of the year I was able to make it to the 50 000. Not the most sustainable way to train, but I told myself I would not let it happen again. Yet here I am 10 000 behind and I realized it might not be physically possible to reach 50 000 push-ups this year. Sure I had been doing a handful of reps each day, but not often reaching my daily goal, and on some days, foregoing them completely. This terrified me. Along with all my other requirements, all my other promises that have been slipping, this one, which forms the keystone of my discipline and the core of all my other requirements, may have been too late to salvage. Again, terrifying. But I wasn't going to give up without a fight, because this requirement is so fundamental to the rest of my training I hoped that if I could strive to get it back on track that I could start fighting to progress with everything else. 

So I crunched the numbers and made a plan and have been prioritizing my push ups again. And it will be hard and it will be close but it is physically possible for me to keep my promise, so I have been doing everything in my power to make sure I do. 

Since Oct 18th I have done 8630 pushups. I’m not hoping I can make it again this year. I am going to. 

Current Total

Should Be At

Push-ups

31233

45360

Sit-Ups

29580

45360

Hand Form

258

840

Weapon Form

285

840

Other Forms

203

294

Sparring

391

840

AOK

613

840

Steps

2375

1302

Repair Relationship

5

9

Me and White Supremacy

6

21

12 Applications

2

9

1-on-1's

24

42

Kung Fu Art

1

9

Blogs

25

42




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