Long Overdue

April 12th. 

That was the last time I published a blog. 45 days in which I seemingly could not find even 10 minutes to spare to write something, to write anything, to even just list my numbers. Not only that but I have completely fallen off the wagon with reading blogs from the rest of the team. It has made me feel disconnected and it has made the time even more slippery, not being able to read the milestones my teammates have reached, not being able to share in their struggles, not really realizing that people have written six, seven, or more blogs when I have failed to write even one. 

The worst part of this all is that I have not felt a sense of panic, a sense of urgency that with each passing week I was falling further and further behind in this requirement. Sure, I had missed a few, but I could write a few extra and catch right back up right? As I’m writing this out I’m not even sure I could guess how many weeks I have missed. 

“Where am I? What am I doing?” 

“I have no idea. Nothing apparently”

I think I can say that this has been my worst year ever for blogging, and the fact that I allowed it to get this bad, and not be alarmed by it is very worrisome to me. This has been a very negative blog but it feels disingenuous to try to put a positive spin on this, to try to find some sort of silver lining. I just needed to write out an objective this is where I’m at, this is how I will do better moving forward. 

For the next few weeks I want to try doing 2 blogs a week: one detailing what I’ve been doing in my training week to week, and one for my mastery blogging requirement until I get back into the rhythm of blogging and the habit of finding little pockets of time to write within. 

I will need help from the team, please reach out if you don’t hear from me again, sometimes the glass rock is quite heavy and hard to get out from under without help, in fact the only reason this blog exists is because someone poked me about it, so thank you. 

Current Total

Should Be At

Push-ups

13496

18051

Sit-Ups

15185

18051

Hand Form

92

334

Weapon Form

121

334

Blogs

8

17

Sparring

71

334

AOK

272

334

Steps

843

518

Repair Relationship

11

17

Mastery Blogs

1

8

Digital Journal

3956

Words

Jaw Exercises

127

35

1-on-1's

11

17

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