Canada Day Demo's Eve

 'Twas the night before the demo, and all through the kwoon...

And I was left wondering if I would have enough room?


Trying to add some last minute tweaks to my weapons form to accommodate this notorious hill I keep hearing feared whispers of from the other team members did throw a bit of a wrench into my confidence, but other than that I am surprisingly calm and even maybe a bit excited for the demo tomorrow.

It has been a ridiculously long time since I last did anything kung fu related in front of the general public, and this is going to be my first time ever doing a demo, and performing a dragon dance. 

All these first, and unknown variables, and less than ideal total practice time, but despite all those things I am not really all that nervous (which is extremely rare for me).

As a rule I like not being nervous about things so I want to try to narrow down what it is about this time that is so different? 

Maybe it's because I have more confidence in myself as a marital artist since the last time I performed? (But I still get nervous about other things so that can't be it?) Maybe it's because I just did up my calendar for July so it hasn't been starring me in the face weeks before the actually event? (but I don't think that's it either because I knew on some level that it was steadily approaching anyway) Maybe it's because for the first time in my kung fu journey I am part of a wonderful team full of incredible students that inspire me to do better and provide a constant positive force in my life, and that I know will have my back tomorrow? (possible contender for an answer)

(but I think the real reason I'm not all that nervous is that if I mess up I know I can fall back onto plan B which is to dive off the other end of the hill, running into the night, never to be heard from again, so that's comforting too I guess)

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