Missing Blogs

Since I started my new job I have found it really difficult to set aside time to blog. It's not that I don't have anything to blog about, in fact I have too many blogs that I want to write, cataloging progressions and insights in my training, recounting events of the Tiger challenge, and of the events that I have had to miss like the parade, details of my progress on repairing a relationship, talking about how kung fu threads through different aspects of what I do at my job, exploring ideas brought up in team meetings, discussing progress in my weapon form. My brain is too full of all the things I need to remember I want to write about so it's harder and harder to start thinking of new ideas to explore because it feels like I don't have the mental space as these same ideas spin around and around in my brain, instead of getting them out and into writing. 

The problem hasn't been that I'm not thinking about these things, I realize I'm thinking in the pattern of how I write my blogs, arranging the ideas, drafting specific sentences, beginnings and endings to each blog, even this one taking shape quickly because the idea has been circling around my brain in the weeks that I have been meaning to sit down and actually write it out. The problem is that I'm not recording any of these thoughts. As time passes the ideas become more foggy, harder to remember specific details, and certain trains of thought become derailed and fall off entirely. Things that seemed like exciting and important insights are becoming dull and vague because I didn't take a snapshot of the context that made them arise in the first place. 

It makes me sad to think about all the lost ideas in the past couple of weeks, but I want to use that sadness and fear of it continuing to happen, as a motivator to stop it from continuing to happen in the future.  

Comments

  1. Nigel BauerJune 15, 2023 at 10:49 AM

    I think it’s okay that our priorities shift. We only have so much brain space to give things. It’s great to want to write down everything, but not everything needs to be written down, and it’s okay to let go of that idea.
    Having said that, I am looking forward to what you’re going to write. Should maybe get back into doing the table talk, or podcast style, where it’s a group of us just talking about a certain topic.

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  2. Malinda FerrisJune 15, 2023 at 11:32 AM

    I get this. This was one of the reasons for my daily blogging goal. But some thoughts still get lost. I think we try to really work through all the thoughts before we put them in a blog…but maybe we just need to record them when they are raw and incomplete as well…without any sort of conclusion. It’s something I’ve been thinking about.

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  3. Jeff BrinkerJune 19, 2023 at 10:59 AM

    Glad you are connecting the dots and addressing this.

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